Sunday, June 29, 2014
Today, I am on a train... I didn`t want to be here, but I had to take a hard decision. And I`m telling you, it was so damn difficult! I had to say goodbye earlier than I planed to two special and very loved souls in my life: my dad and my best friend. Soon I will do the same thing with my mom. When I come back just for a while to my old life it`s not so easy to let it go again, the emotions and the moments that I experience with the loved ones can never be taken from me, never replaced. Time and distance are not stronger than our bond.
Whatever we do, we can`t change our destiny and I realized that when I did sacrifices, new doors opened in front of me. When I left to Denmark one year ago, it was the first time when I had to live alone in a foreign country and learn to survive by myself. It wasn`t easy at all, I was so unhappy and so scared, almost lost. After that I decided to leave my boyfriend that I had at that time and I moved in with a stranger. It was the best thing that I could have done because now, after almost one year I am in a happy relationship with an amazing guy that loves me,he is always there for me and he helped me to build myself again and to be more fulfilled than I ever was. I risked everything at that time but today I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
Some days ago I did the same thing, I decided to not spend my summer in Romania, to cancel the plain ticket that I had for August and to return to Denmark. I saw how much my parents are struggling to help me to live and study there. I want to call them at the end of July and tell them: "I found a job, you don`t need to send me money anymore".
When we take decisions we are always scared about "unknown grounds", they make us feel insecure, so we have the tendency to choose them because of their comfort.It`s wrong!Even if on a long term the "known grounds" are the safest ones and show certainty they will not be the ones that will get us out from our comfort zone. We need to feel pain, to experience frustrations in order to realize what is best for us to do. Nothing in life is hazard, if we open our eyes wide we will be exactly where we need to be at the perfect time. Be patient, be courageous, follow your intuition and take every failure or pain as an opportunity and then... doors or windows that you never imagined they exist will appear in front of you.
Theodore Roosevelt said: “Nothing in the world is worth having or worth doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty… I have never in my life envied a human being who led an easy life. I have envied a great many people who led difficult lives and led them well.”
These words inspire me to be a warrior of my own war because in the end I know I will be the hero of my life.
TED Talk: How to make hard choices